Thursday, May 19, 2011
Changing my thought pattern
"You have to learn the rules of the game. And then you have to play better than anyone else" - Albert Einstein
I find it helps me change my thought process if I try to read some of the wise words of brilliant people. I certainly am not brilliant so I try to draw from them to help me process my problems. I don't want to perseverate on the issues that bother me. I don't know why I need to spend my nights not sleeping, re-hashing the events that tick me off. I can't change anything about what happened. I can only determine what I choose to do about it, or how to respond. Once I get into a cycle of thinking and re-thinking, I can't seem to stop. Oh, and then I start to worry about it. I'm like a walking ball of anxiety and really wish I could just let it go.
What is my fatal flaw that prompted all of this thinking? I am too trusting. I take people at their word and believe that they will keep it. I don't like to play games, I don't expect everyone to be my friend, only friendly. How many times do you have to be trampled over before you learn your lesson? I have not found the answer to that question as it relates to me yet. 6 million and counting or something like that.